Tomorrow we will be 10 days away from closing on our new home.

10 days away from God fulfilling a promise He made us when we got married.

10 days away from something prayed for for over a year.

10 days away from moving out of our storage unit life style we had for 3 months.

10 days.

I want to remember the days that I prayed for this day to come.

I want to remember how faithful God was even when I felt like He wasn't listening.

I want to remember all the circles I made thinking I knew the right direction.

I want to remember how God saw us through a time we had no idea which way to go.

10 days from having a miracle home.

I hope this home is filled with Gods love.

I hope the beds are never empty, the table is always full & the living room is never silent.

Reed and I prayed for this home. We asked God over a year ago to provide a home that was us. That would have enough space to host many friends, to allow us to pursue our passions and to help us bring home our Nica Nugget.

10 days we can start that again.

10 days we can pick up our journey towards our family.

10 days a long almost 6 month journey of uncertainty will become a long journey of establishing roots and producing good fruit!

Well dang y'all.

I had every intention of blogging my mind away through this adoption, but honestly it has been heavier than I thought. My mind is so full that trying to figure out what to share when was just another "thing" I didn't need to add to my life. BUT this morning I was sitting here for about the 30 millionth day in a row saying "tonight I'm going to write thank you notes", but

spoiler alert

I'm probably not going to write a single thank you tonight and here is why.

ADOPTION IS HARD.

That is the short of it. Adoption is hard, it seems like a beautiful God calling that shows you His provision (and it does) but it is also the heaviest thing we have ever done. We sit here thinking every day, morning in my quiet time, every free minute, about what life will be like when we bring our nugget home. We have been preparing for 6 months now, but there is still no "sign" of a little one, just more paperwork to put together, more questions to answer... more waiting.

So while we are unbelievably grateful for the gifts, the encouragement, the financial blessings, it is just a little hard to write a genuine thank you right now. And we believe whole heartedly that those that have been involved need a genuine thank you, not a "thank you for your gift, what a perfect blessing! Follow my blog for more updates!". We want to find the words to express how much it means that because of what

they

have given we are able to confidently follow a difficult path to a family that we are more certain of than anything in our lives. That each dollar, gift, encouraging word has been affirmation that we are going the right way.

Right now I don't want to sit at the kitchen table and craft a thank you note. I want to get our nugget home. I want to have a phone call that we are on the list, that we have been matched, and that they are ready for us to come meet this already unbelievably loved little one.

If you have given to our family and not heard a response, we are sorry. Our southern families are probably cringing that it has been 6 months with no thank you sent. But trust me, your gift means more than we can put in to words. We WILL write you a note, and it will be a note from the heart and most likely stained with tears of joy.

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10 days from an answered prayer

Why It Is So Hard to Write a Thank You